Early Wedding Day

I couldn't sleep- big surprise- so I got up and checked the tent to make sure everything was still there, but really I didn't want to wake the first lady of my life. This is such a strange, hard, awesome, happy and sad place to be. It's hard to see the keys to write because tears are clouding the locations.

Larnell Harris sings a song called "The other woman in my Life" and it is about how his daughter grows up to become that person. I am so blessed to have my beautiful, hard working, tender hearted, full of laughter, friend to so many, wife and it is hard to believe that God has given me another woman to add to that joy. I don't deserve the incredible wife I have and yet God lavished on me an amazing daughter as well.

As I think about Kimmy being gone from our home, going to the other side of America, my heart is so glad that God has given her to us and yet so sad that this stage is now just a few hours away from being over. The house will be so different- she brings life to the room when she enters. She is so discerning and yet tender. She helps me understand Teresa and helps Teresa understand me. Many times she has been the "go between" and she will be able to take this into her next stage.

How can my little girl be leaving today? How could the time pass so quickly? How can it be that in just a few hours I will give her to the man that God has planned for her to share the rest of her life with? We love Ian and they are perfectly suited for each other; I can't imagine the heart ache I would feel if I had to give her to someone that I didn't think was going to take care of her. I am so blessed.

My heart is just really sad right now and it's not that I don't want them to get married but I just can't believe my life is going to change so much from today forward. From the moment I saw her, heard her low cry, held my beautiful little girl, I knew that this day would come but I had no idea how much she would impact my life.

We don't get do overs, there are no go back and change this or that, I can't undo anything I have messed up- and there are plenty of those- and I really don't have lots of regrets in my life. I am excited to give her away because I know that God has something amazing for her and Ian to do, but I just love this young woman so much.

Today will be crazy with all kinds of things happening. I'm going to miss lots of those things but it doesn't really matter, what matters is that today is the day that God planned from eternity past for this to happen, He planned many things to take place along the way, and they have, and I hope to be the most joyful, happy teared, forward looking, liver on unseen things person I can be today, by His strength and power. Today is a day to worship just like every other day we have breath; I want to do that well today.